#24. I don't have the words.

We've been having some issues with meds that have frustrated us all in our house completely. The fatigue has been huge and the medicine causes fatigue. It's been a "two steps forward ten steps back" period of time, and when tired, we see a huge jump in symptoms. Cheese in the freezer? Check. Items in a weird location? Check. Conversations repeated? Check. Doctors have decided to switch up meds after Roger developed a skin reaction to the patch he had for one medicine. The physician admitted we are treating the symptoms until we find something that works.

When the kids were younger, Roger had a PE (pulmonary embolism). Being the stellar wife I am, at the time I asked him as he was coming up the stairs if he was having an "asthma attack". We happened to be going to the doctor who in a series of truly lucky events, found that he had 3 DVT's (Deep vein thrombosis). Roger was put on blood thinners and has been for a number of years. We haven't had a DVT for about twenty years. Recently, he was in having a routine ultrasound on his legs and through another really lucky series of events, the radiologist just happened to find two DVT's. This makes doctors run fast. Another glimmer.

Roger also was tested again for PT and OT assessments and he still is meeting all his goals there. They are such a positive part of his team. A huge glimmer!

We also saw the general doctor and he questioned if Roger was having pain in his back and if that could be causing some of his issues currently. Roger's had back issues and chronic pain for years and recently scoliosis has shown up on his chart. When did that happen? We're waiting on that referral to a specialist and yet another avenue to explore.

I read to release stress. Self help, romance, religious, mysteries, etc....We know I'm a diverse reader. You name it, I like to read it. My Kindle even recently burnt up and died. (You can't make this up.) I'll admit, my household has been a lot to process lately. My youngest and I often look at each other and I know we are both thinking "really"? "What next?" Recently one of my brain candy romance novels said it best.

"For the disease and discomforts in your physical body. For the emotional and mental hurt others inflict upon you. For the burdens you carry. Have the long view. Expand your perspective. If you don't know how, kneel down tonight and ask God to help you see the bigger picture, and where you belong inside it. For my brothers and sisters, we all belong inside the family of God."